so awak, saya buat post ni untuk awak. dengan harapan yg menggunung agar awak baca post ni.
saya mintak maaf kalau ada tersilap cakap atau terkasar bahasa.
semua berlaku tanpa niat untuk menyakiti sesiapa
so, kat sini saya nk bagi penjelasan terhadap si Taufik tu.. seriously i don't hv any feelings towards him. i cuma rindu my life where i used to be single and act like i'm in a relationship. (nk jd attention seeker je sebenarnya tuuu) when i act like i'm in a relationship or gonna be in a relationship, that guy will always stick around until something 'unexpected' happen. entah laa.. tak tawu cane nk explain bab2 yg ni. my single life dulu mmg gila gila lahh *unsincere smile
i takut sangat bila dpt tawu dia call mlm tu.. Arisha soh hanta business card. and nk jual that number. which i tak bagi cz that time she was drunk. only that time i understood apa maksud kawan makan kawan. i cried like crazy tw malam tu. cz, i can't blame on her. she's my friend. and bila you tawu i yg menggatal, mesti you marah gila kan.. babe, if i was on your shoes, i'll be doing the same thing........ ..........just now; around 1 sumthing tadi Arisha finally called and said sorry. she won't bother me anymore. tak tawu ahh ape dia nk buat to fix all this mess she made. i told her just stay calm and just let me do everything kayy.. it's my fault though..
(Ya Allah. I still can't get over it!! *sedih )
dah, pasal that story i tamo ingat pape dah.. it was my worst day ever.
apa lagi yg i tak cite? hey, kalau boleh kan, i tanak cite anything about my past kat you. but my attitude yg bertindak baru berfikir ni forced me to. entah.. lebih baik cite je sume. so there's nothing to hide about kan?
hmm~
about Dinie. um. My Dinie.. yeah. i did talked to her. ingat nk ngadu kat dia pasal what happened lately ni.. but terlepas cakap. i told her the things that i already knew. c'mon lah.. obviously kott you marah kat i kalau i ada feeling kat other guys. but BJ reminds me of why i still wanna be with you. BJ was the first thing (kott) barang precious you yg i pernah bawak balik. i am madly inlove with you. everything seems so perfect back then. i still need you. i never been in this kinda relationship. you selalu ada whenever i need you. you boleh buat i cair (takpayah nk senyum) bila i cair, i akan senyum, tutup muka or pandang tempat lain right? :') only you can make me go crazy in love.
i even can't remember kenapa i couple dgn those guys in my past. maybe sbb diorg care? diorg suka kacau i? diorg care? but i realized 1 thing yg sorang pun tak penah ada apa yg you ada(i bukan nk compare you dgn diorang. i just want you to know what makes you special to my eyes) sayang, SACRIFICE. true, loving, sweet, beautiful sacrifice. i felt so touched bila dengar stuff(s) that you did for me. you really meant it. and i cried bcuz of that. yknow wht, whatever you do, i just wanna cry my heart out.. apa yg you dh buat kat i sume boleh buat i rasa that i'm not worth it for you. macam, i'm nothing compared to your perfect feeling towards me. serious ni i tanya, what have i done sampai you sayang gila2 kat i? i just wanna know why. you are perfect. sooo perfect. i don't wanna change a thing about you.
okay.. dah. saya tamo emo time2 meceni -.- #nowplaying Again - Bruno Mars. mmg aku tak emo kan 'pagi ni'. so it's already 4 in the morning. nnt nakgi airport and go ambik kakllong's result.. all the best kak long! hehe.. dh la. nk tido. and around 6 nnt nak kena bgn, pack baju and buat activity sprt yg dirancang ^-^V
