hello, assalamualaikum. it's been decades since the last time i updated my blog. so, let's just do high speed recap about 2012. -wait, MY 2012.
after PGL, i mula rapat with Quatermaster members. Arvi, Dhanny, Roha.. and automatically Lim Li Yin. they meant something in my life. they always made my day. lepastu pejam celik, pejam celik, tahu-tahu dah PMR trials.
well, trials was foineee.. but unsatisfied results for sure. dapat 1A je..? i mean.. what the heck mann..? bila suara ketidakpuasan hati tu di lepaskan, cikgu pun dengan hati mulianya (konon nya lahh) nak menenangkan hati ktorg, bagitahu yang sebenarnya trial kitorang ikut markah sekolah berprestasi tinggi. wahh.. boleh tahan lah sebab my results semua lulus je. takda lah teruk sangat pun. agak-agak, PMR mesti boleh punya 8A!! woooo!!
next, i spent my ramadhan with... errrr.... entah.. kawan-kawan? had iftar with classmates sangat best! tapi gambar-gambar semua kat camera mehh.. camera is not with me rn. pshzz.. oh, surprisingly i knew someone is in love with me, but buat-buat tak tahu je lah. mwahahahha..
lepastu busy dengan mantap minda, and tup-tap-tup-tap, dah PMR. i don't live with my parents anymore. yehhh.. memang bermain dengan emosi lah sepanjang musim exam tu. gaduh besar wehh.. cuba bayangkan, everytime ada break between papers, parents semua orang datang nak bagi anak masing2 lunch.. well, aku..? macam takada makbapak je. sumpah sedih wehh..
lepas tu things gets much more serious when i can't stand it, i tend to run away from home. for like, whutt..? 2nd time. gila jugak adena ni ehh.. by the time i ran away, me and her, it's over. everything lasts until 4th of september. so basically our relationship tak sampai pun 1year. and that is saddddd..
i spent 3months non-stop crying and kept thinking about what actually happen. benda ni semua macam pathetic gila cause i can't imagine the tears that rolls on my mother's face. i hate my dad, tapi yang menderita, my mum. that is unfair kan..?
minggu terakhir. sekolah, i swear to god, SANGAT MEMBOSANKAN!. but, it's fun when you can act like the school is yours. muehehehe.. gahh gituu~ but yet still boring, boring, boring.. dah la time tu other students were having end-year examination. pastu form fives sebok dgn mantap minda. since then, dah tak ada peluang nak lepak dgn seniors. again, that is sadddd...
couple of days after boring weekdays at school, i went outstation (cehhh.. outstation sangatt *tangan di dada, mata di atas*) balik Maninjau, Indonesia. i really thought i was going to move there. but i didn't. tak cakap dgn sesiapa sangat pun selama ada kat sana. tapi bila dah lama-lama tu.. okay lahh... can lego for a while.. so i spent 2 weeks there having a great time with my actual family and forgetting those shits in Malaysia.
but gotta admit, i can never forget her, and Iqffa.
mereka sentiasa dihati dan diminda. semuanya terasa indah apabila mereka sentiasa di sisi. namun, semua itu hanya sementara. i have to forget Atiqah. she was nothing in my life. never meant anything. ktorg dah takda apa-apa pun! i have to forget her. tapi lagi sakit rasanya bila dapat tahu Iqffa rapat dengan dia.
well, tak boleh nak halang. everybody adores Atiqah. she can fit in anytime, anywhere.
but me? i don't know. rasanya macam iqffa lebih sayangkan Atiqah daripada junior dia sendiri. for the third time, this is sadd.. really.
bila dah balik malaysia, semua probs tu datang balik. macam-macam benda melayang dalam fikiran. time tu rasa terseksa sangat.
the next 12 days (rasanya) budak2 QM panggil duty. dah tak ada benda nak buat, so i just agreed. lepas tu again adena buat hal. overnight rumah Hanis (actually rumah Aida but wtv. btw it's a girls night. hehehh) then tried to call azrul but nobody pick up the phone. sadis gila. so i made decision to have a night at her place. serious dah tak tahu nak lari kat siapa lagi. i just don't wanna go home.
Arisha apologized as she didn't pick up any phone calls as she and others was at PD (WITHOUT INFORMING) having a superb niceeee holss.. yeah right guys! congrats!! pergi lah lagi, inform last minute. kalau tak pun, tak payah inform langsung pun rasanya lagi bagus. ptuihh.
so i told mama the truth abt everything. every prob that i've been through. every single thing (well, not really. i was crying like hell that I CAN'T even TALK) so yeah. Ever since the tragic, i spent the rest of my days at my grandma's. since kat rumah Atiqah, i haven't really eat any proper food till now. yeah. sumpah takda mood. kalau makan pun terpaksa. haigghhh..
couple of weeks after nothing happened, i was shocked by the news of KL people tryin to blackmailing Azrul and others. mann.. what for la deii..? lepastu bila tak puas hati, diorang cari aku pulak. dah la yang cari pasal tu most of em pengs. Pengs yang tidak bertauliah!! sumpah all of us anti gila dengan perempuan-perempuan serong tu.
i mean, kalau kau nak tunjuk pengkid pun, respect la sikit us ladies. tak perlu sangat nak tunjuk yg kau tu jantan ditopengkan betina. my other peng friends pun, takda lah pulak keong macam korang. sumpah celaka -,-
okay. tu jelah rasanya. so basically i'm going out later. they said that were gonna have dinner in the dark. can't wait! and yeahh.. that is all for today. best of wishes for 121212 :*
xoxo, D.
