it's 14:15 and i'm still here, trying to calm myself down. too many school works, too many tasks, too messed up, too stressed out and too many things i should deal with. dah la tengah demam.
i can't focus on today's classes (especially maths) i got too caught up with things that i'm not sure if i should deal with it or not.
i mean, i just realize that I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE TIME FOR MYSELF!
- i have green house on monday
- accounts on tuesday
- koko on wednesday
- tasawur on thursday
- tuition on friday
- all day gym on saturday
- set up school stuff and finishing all homeworks on freakingly HATED SUNDAY
maybe i'm feeling sad for myself that i tend to keep myself busy for the rest of the weeks (just so that i gt distracted) the life that i'm going through right now is NOTHING like last year. it changed like 360 degree.
yes, this is very hard for me. i'm scared of what i'm about to go through this year. i guess i should drop tswr and focu on my accounts instead. any other suggestion anyone? no? hmm.. okay.
i think i should make up my mind. it's been a week hee and i can't even decide :( i just...
i just want to forget about her, about them, about last year. i should pack myself up and i should move on.
but i'm afraid, i can't. nothing works.
